Dear D.,

No one really cares about that anymore do they? I’m sorry.

catching up with a friend over the last 1000 days

Here’s what I remember
What is relevant
What you should know happen since you left
And what is happening now that you’re back:

* In Enmore, on my own
* No, I don’t really see that person anymore.
* I got kind of depressed but I’m okay now
* No I’m not seeing anyone at the moment
* Fucking love the Shins. Have you heard Nada Surf?
* Yeah one album. We’ve started work on another.
* No, last I heard she’s in New York. With that fuckhead of a boyfriend.
* Yes. I don’t get to see her very much. We talk by email a lot.
* No I can’t believe she got married either. What’s Tim like?
* I got the 60GB photo. It’s just over half full.
* Yes, we’re old. Maybe I should settle down. It’s been on my mind.
* Yeah, things are good, really.

Dennis Wilson was playing an imaginary song
And like I was lining up in the movie Brazil
I stormed off, sick of the politics
And I walked straight past you but you tried to grab me with both arms
And I pushed you away and left

Still it seems
Incongruous to me
That I haven’t known you for a million years

Thousands of days

If you’ve ever regretted anything you say
That’s the only words you had anyway

Maybe it’s the foods that I don’t eat
Or maybe something’s eating away at me.

I’ve already been broken in two
I’ve hurt everyone I ever knew

In the year when my friends began to die
Not just people that my parents knew but real friends of mine
A lot of things I believed in also died
But I was a much better person when I got to the other side

I got pretty sad there for a while
I pretty much just drifted through and never smiled
Except in cruelty at the world that’s grown wild

Hello there
Dark hair
Waving my arms in the silent air

I see you
You see me
But you don’t ever see the other side of it

And I only notice the world’s all ours
When you mention it

And is there something I can do
To get you to
Consider me?

I want to stop this train with my foot
Sckewer the planet to stop it from spinning
Clap my hands and turn off the sun
Tap my heels together and be gone